Learning Faith

For two years I been walkin’, walkin’ on my feet
because i had a vision, a vision leading me
a vision of a bridge braided out of rope
crossing a great canyon, a bridge made out of hope

I remember looking off of that cliff
at how the bridge would swing each time the wind would shift
and yet i felt the need to grip the guardrails in my palms
the need to move forward, the need to carry on

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If I had known what it would take
I would have turned and run away
instead of standing here learning faith, learning to let it fly
instead of standing here learning faith, learning to not ask why
and walkin’ til the day I die

You would not believe how few words there are to say
when you spend your days moving this way
mostly all i’m thinking is the next two foot stretch
and mostly all i’m feelin my toes gripped round the edge

voices say i’m crazy, i know that it’s true
but on the day i close my eyes and bid this world adieu
i will not pray for heaven or fear the fire below
i will simply be asleep with nowhere left to go

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So Fucking Cool

I am so fucking cool, i could take her skinny ass to school
she’ll take her toll but i’ll keep my soul
because i am so fucking cool
i wish i could fake it like her
but i guess i gotta deal with the breaks of a heart that’s pure
and for me, love is not a pose, it’s just standing here with my guts exposed
how i wish i could fake it like her

yeah she’s got the hundred dollar jeans and she’s staring down her plastic nose at me
she might catch your eye but i know how to grit my teeth
and turn the lies into something sweet
I’ll turn the lies into something sweet

Because I am so fucking cool
I learned all the finest tricks at underdog school
and everyone loves a story ’bout someone nearly lost who gains victory
that’s why i am so fucking cool
i am so fucking cool
i am so fucking cool

 

If There’s a God

Down at the State House it was 5,000 to 1
The air was electric something real had begun
we sent our speaker in to talk about where we had been
when I got to the chamber I could not speak
the stories told there make a strong man weep
but you threw back the blame said our lot was God’s domain
caused a change I can’t explain like a slap ‘cross the cheek, made me believe

If there’s a God, if there’s a God
God is gonna rain down hell on you
I’d sleep at night knowin that was true
if there’s a God, if there’s a God
God is gonna rain down hell on you

I may be only one but I am singin this song
and I hear others, I hear them singin’ along
in a world of constant change I know one thing remains
a heart broken in pain beats in anger too, makes a body move

And If there’s a God, if there’s a God
God is gonna rain down hell on you
I’d sleep at night knowin that was true
I’d find the strength to carry through
if there’s a God, if there’s a God
God is gonna rain down hell on you

Down at the State House it was 5,000 to 1
the air was electric, something real had begun

 

Surrender

Surrender, surrender, surrender
lay down my sword and shield
Surrender, surrender, surrender
kneel on this battlefield
take it apart, the metal plate over my heart, leave the whole thing revealed
Surrender, surrender, surrender
heed the voice that drowns out all I’ve know
Surrender, surrender, surrender
hear the drum that beats all on its own
driving me to what some part of me knew but I’ve never been shown

When it all falls down and returns to dust in the thick of night
and i wake up stoned down to my bones and i cannot fight
feel my way out into God knows what but it must be right

Surrender, surrender, surrender
where my sweet acceptance lives
Surrender, surrender, surrender
where angels heal me with a kiss
a choir sings, voices lift, manna for this

When it all falls down and returns to dust in the thick of night
and i wake up stoned down to my bones and i cannot fight
feel my way out into God knows what but it must be right
feel my way out into God knows what and I see the light
the light, the light

Surrender, surrender, surrender

 

Loving You

It’s different than it used to be, we’re older than our parents were
a funny world for you and me, seems colder than it was before
but one thing hasn’t changed, and that’s the feeling of loving you
so natural, so strange, so timeless and so new

With flashing lights and cluttered minds crowding us out everywhere
the little things get left behind while we run off trying not to care
but one thing makes me stay and that’s the feeling of loving you
it won’t be washed away or proved to be untrue

Some things we can’t explain away
some dreams have gotta see their day, come what may

And so the human race goes on and swears it’s on a road to doom
and still I’m moved to sing a song and pull some kind of magic through
a hero in my way all for the feeling of loving you
come to state my case for all the things you do
come to state my case for all the things you do

 

Wish

Took me to Chez Gaston, told me I could order anything I want
showed me to the best seats in the house for My Fair Lady, the one the critics raved about
I learned the actors’ names, friends came back to our living room
you said that my smarts must have come from you
then the party was over, time for them to go, you and me alone, then the change came

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Yelling curses, hurling dishes, turned my wish, cold and blue
sudden anger bred constant fear of what was hidden inside of you
I tried hard not to upset like any child learning to survive
mama since the day we met, I’ve tried to keep my wish alive

Bitter medicine to swallow not only for the patient, but for the one who opens the bottle
but this illness is real and spells you don’t recall left wounds i still gotta heal to stop the bleeding
If I rip the bandage off, expose it to the air, can it be the act of love we’re needing

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Dear God

Dear God, tell me what I’m gonna do
between bad and worse, what am i gonna choose
I tried to see the doctor today
but the governor slammed the door right in my face
and I’m seventeen years old, is my time already told
with the baby of a baby on its way

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And it’s life, it’s life, it’s life that’s got me talkin’ now to you
was it life, sweet life that brought me down
or some old man who says he speaks for you

Dear God, I planned on going to school
keepin’ up my grades, gain the proper tools
now I’ll be stuck here just like everyone else
stackin’ boxes on some WalMart shelf
or carryin’ to term a child who’ll never learn
why his mama gave him up to someone else

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Dear God, gonna go down to the depot tonight
do what I gotta do in the flickering light
got the name of a place out on 56
for some kind of price they’ll give me some kind of fix
In the land of the free I’ve come to this

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Only the Blues

Since the day I left my hometown
been lookin’ for a place to lay my burden down
i walked around memphis, i pranced around paris
i drove across texas and i knelt before Jesus

and i don’t know why, and i don’t know how
but only the blues will take my burden now

Everybody asks me what on earth i think I’ll get
that i haven’t gotten yet
it won’t be riches, probably not fame
I still got my freedom But the price is my pain

and i don’t know why and I don’t know how
but only the blues will take my burden now

so go call your doctor, go pray to your saint
buy yourself a new house with a new coat of paint
i’ll keep my last dollar on this three chord riff
three chords and a microphone give me some kind of lift

and i don’t know why and i don’t know how
but only the blues will take my burden now

so baby i love you with all of my heart
i will til the end, I did from the start
but when my eyes are teary don’t think you got the cure
and it ain’t because your love ain’t pure

i don’t know why and i don’t know how
but only the blues will take my burden now

 

Open Road

You and i had seen the open road
had the nerve to give it one more go
with a car from your old job and my book of songs
a Mexican blanket to cover the guitars
and the faith of those whose race is not run
hey it might get rough out there I know
but we can do this, take my hand lets go

Said you loved to drive through the night
drove us up to Michigan alright
then the old friend you never thought you’d see again
came out in Cleveland, started buying you rounds, you toasted freedom
but your eyes were looking down
I tried to ask “are you alright?”
you didn’t answer, just drove through the night

out on the open road
where long shadows show
and riders pray for the light we know not to be dyin’

the same old friend showed up in three more towns
seemed to turn your old nerve around
somewhere near Buffalo that old car slowed
too much weight, too many miles
I guess you knew something had to go
like a dream your old friend took the wheel
left me by the snowbanks with the pain you wouldn’t feel

Now sometimes I see you around
I can never seem to make a sound
I heard you’re working an office job now
I’m still out here, I don’t always know why
I think about you and it darkens my eyes
but I guess this life still gives me hope
some kind of freedom, some kind of rope

out on the open road where long shadows show
and riders pray for the light we know not to be dyin’
And all us souls wanna turn around
And crawl back underground
but me I’ll head for the light I’ve found or grow old tryin’

you and I had seen the open road

 

Long Way Down

I had been there before
old man worry hangin’ round my door
heard his heavy silence outside
wishin i could run away and hide

poured myself a stiff drink of gin
looked around that hole i’d been in
felt the old man’s whiskers
ticklin’ my fingers
as i opened the door and pushed him aside

and it’s a long way back
its a long way down
it’s a long way
won’t get there today
but i won’t be turning around

Hailed a cab and sped up the road
to my lover’s abode
thinkin’ bout the good times
thinkin’ bout those sweet rhymes
and all those funny dreams i hold

I swept in there ready for the kill
tried to move him by the sheer force of my will
I pulled his arms around me
said, ‘ain’t ya glad you found me?’
and he just stood there, stone still

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And I don’t know how long the road
don’t know how hard the right
only that I’m goin’
though I’m only knowin’
of one friend who’ll stay by my side

Now I’m here by the northern line
and I am lost as a lone turtle dove
watching lovers kiss
in their lovers’ bliss
while that old train rattles above

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